I told *F that I was afraid of losing him or of us drifting apart. His response was that this was a reasonable fear, and that he already knew that I felt that way. This startled me. Perhaps it’s not that big a deal, but I never let anyone really get that close to my heart. Telling him all these things makes me feel way too vulnerable. Exposed. I’m too used to being hurt by people eventually, that it is best to keep them at a distance. No one can truly be trusted with your heart – I’ve learnt this lesson the hard way.