Tuesday, 2 June 2015
Wednesday, 13 May 2015
Last time I posted, I was feeling really stressed out about not yet having heard back from the university about studying this year... 2015 had not started off on a very good foot, and time was already flying by so fast. The last thing I wanted was to spend another year like 2014!
But a few days later I finally received my acceptance to NMMU, and things started moving forward. I was really nervous about staring all over again and I had no idea what to expect. I attended all my orientation activities, chose my subjects and registered! It was a very weird feeling. I could never have imagined being in this situation - studying in my home city, doing anything other than medicine...
Regardless, I decided to see this whole experience as turning over a new leaf. I was getting a chance to change the direction in which my life was going. How often do we actually have the liberty to really start over? So, with some encouragement from my mentor, I kept telling myself to take one little step at a time, and look on the bright side of things.
Before I knew it things were moving full speed ahead. It must be said that starting university again at 24 is a vastly different experience to starting varsity fresh out of high school at 18. For one thing, I barely knew anyone around me. And for another, I could approach this with the wisdom and maturity that I gained from my previous experience. I feel more comfortable interacting with different people, and competent with my academic abilities. This is a pleasant change for me.
I look forward to the rest of this year and all that it entails.
Sunday, 18 January 2015
This year has not started off on a great note. It has barely registered that 2014 has ended. Everything has just been so dull for the past couple of months and I have just been trying to get through to the other side - wherever that may be.
I'm still waiting to hear about my application status from the university. To say that they are dragging things would be an understatement! I really thought that I would have heard back by now. I've tried calling them but they haven't been able to offer me any useful information. I just need to know what is happening - one way or another!
My anxiety levels have been rising for a while now. Being stuck like this again worries me, and I really wish that I had done more with last year to be better prepared for whatever is still to come.
But wishful thinking doesn't get you very far. I need to start actually making things happen for myself instead of waiting around. I just wouldn't know where to start if it all falls apart again – i.e. how to deal with another rejection... But I know that I can’t go down that dark path right now.
As hard as it is, I must be patient and have more faith. I am not ready to throw in the chips just yet.