On my part, it might also have to do with the lack of confidence that I seem to have these days. Being out of school for 4 years already and still having to say that I am in 2nd year is a bit of a knock to the ego. I know that it’s more complicated than that, but it still stings a little for me. I sometimes feel as if I am stuck in the same place, whereas everyone around me has moved on and has been making a new successful life for themselves.
So now I just think that it’s time to face the reality that being back in town isn’t a life altering event for everyone anymore. And I am OK with that. It was difficult at first, coming home and not having the same crew to call up and hang out with, but I have also realised that even they have all split up and have found where they belong with different people. I'm not saying that I will still not message them every now and again, but we are all at different places in our lives. Some are graduating this year, starting to work, or just trying to get on with each day.
I will always cherish the memories that we share and I wish them all of the best from the bottom of my heart.