When the sun rises and you open your eyes, you can never be certain of what each new day will bring. So wake up remembering that with God, anything is possible. He blesses us everyday with a new beginning and a chance to do things differently.
Some days I am full of energy and all I want
is to run around like a crazy person, just expressing all the joy that I feel
in my heart.
Other days I feel so down, and as if the
wind has just been knocked out of my lungs. There is no energy and I feel weak,
drained from all the thoughts constantly playing on repeat in my mind.
Maybe I think too much... waiting for the
perfect words to say, the perfect phrase or something clever and witty. And it
is exhausting – all this waiting and thinking. Why not just live? Just let
whatever happens, happen. Let all the anxiety of imperfection take control and
realise that not everything can be molded and impeccable. We all have flaws. Sometimes
that is where the beauty lies. How else would we all be different and unique?
I'm tired of these thoughts of you that keep popping up into my mind at the most inconvienient times. I want them to stop. I want to forget you're name, and the way you look, and all the silly memories we shared. They are all worth nothing to me now. And I don't need them anymore.
I bet that I never cross your mind anymore. How easy it must be for you, to just move on and not look back...
I had a meeting with my mentor today. At first I was excited to
see her because we hadn’t had a meeting in the longest time. But then
the smile on my face turned into a wall that was hiding something
back. And as soon as I realised what it was, it was too late to keep the tears
from falling. Why is it that when you think everything is running smoothly and
that you have stuff under control, you find that there is still a crack in the
surface? A smile is never enough to hide the pain. You can try as hard as you
like to pretend, even to yourself that everything is ok, but sooner or later, those
buried emotions will rise to the surface and there will be no stopping their escape.
And the last thing that you'd want is to be caught in the crossfire.
Every day we
come across people in our daily lives that we don’t know and whom we have never
met before. Maybe they are waiters or cashiers or just randomly
passing us by on the street. But with one meeting, or with one glance, we can’t
pretend to know the story that they keep hidden in their hearts. Not everyone
likes to share their personal details, even some of our friends. As we get to
know them, we just find out bits and pieces.
"It's been said that the saddest thing a man will ever face - is what might have been. But what of a man who's faced what was? . . . or what may never be? . . . or what can no longer be?
Choosing the right path is never easy. It's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us. Sometimes you find your way to something better.
Sometimes, we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy, and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be.
And that's, when we find our way to something better, or something better finds its way to us."
I don't believe that it is a coincidence that in the middle of winter, the sun has come out to play... The last couple of days have been warm and sunny and beautiful.
I know that the rainy days and stormy weather has not passed completely, but nothing brings more hope, than that one day that breaks the cold and reminds us that grey skies don't last forever. The sun has not forsaken us, and when you least expect it, it will shine once again and take your breath away.