Heading out again...

Spring break is now officially coming to an end and its time for me to head back to campus to finish off this year, once and for all! I'm all packed up and ready to go, bright and early in the morning. It has been too short a holiday, but it has been good to take a breather and see my family again. I got a chance to spend some time with my bestie too and even met some of her friends from varsity.

I'm not going to be all sad about leaving this time, because I know that its just one of those things that I have to do. And I really do love being in that beautiful city. My home away from home.

I will always miss my family, but that doesn't mean that I can't love being away.

My mother gives the best hugs

I am back at home for a mini holiday! Finally a chance to just breathe and take a break, FAR away from campus. It is always good coming back home to my family. I miss them so much when I am away. Even though I’ve gotten better at living away from home this past year, I still get really home sick. So now I can stock up on love and big bear hugs from my mother and rest before I go back for the final stretch of this year.

It feels like the beginning of this year happened a lifetime ago, but I guess, in a way, it was. So many things have happened since then. And I am very eager to get this over with! I need to put 2nd year behind me, once and for all...

The only downside to being home right now is that everyone else is still busy at school and varsity! So there is not much going on around these parts.  And things haven’t really changed financially for us. Money is still a bit tight, and I can see how stressed my mother is about everything.

But besides all that, I am doing well. God continues to provide for us every single day. We have so much to be grateful for. I am blessed in a million ways, and I believe that things are still going to get better.  

There are a few things that I need to reflect about this week, from my meetings with my mentor. Our discussions have led to me realising many different things about myself and about my insecurities. And now, that some of them have been highlighted for me, I really want to change a few things, especially the way I think about myself.  

But more about that to come! I hope that anyone stumbling across this post is having a good day/night. Keep well J

My escape

Sometimes it's easier to be here at varsity and not in the middle of everything that goes on at home. I guess it's mostly because nothing seems to be working out for us. My father is away at work in another city on a course, and he seems more distant than ever (emotionally). My mother also has her own fair share of problems with her former employee, that has been ongoing for the past two years now. And because of this we are facing many financial problems. 

Even though we still have a lot to be grateful for, it just feels like we can't catch a break. Is it really too much to ask for? 

I still believe everything happens for a reason. I know that my mother believes that too - no matter what she is faced with. She truly is one of the strongest women that I know and I admire her so much. I just wish that she didn't have to keep fighting against these obstacles that get thrown at her. It's about time that she has a chance to live her life the way she wants to, without anything or anyone hanging over her head.

But anyway, I know we can't predict the future, we have to learn to accept the fact that not everything is under our control. There are far greater powers at work. And He knows exactly what lies ahead for each of us. Sometimes this is really easy to forget. 

So right now, I'm going to focus on studies. This is my escape, and my chance to change things for my future. One day I will be able to help my family and provide for them, not because I need to, but because I want to. Not to live an extravagant life, but to be comfortable within our means.