Long gone and moved on....

"Long Gone And Moved On"

When's the day you start again
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in

Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real

Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on

So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And it’s not me that you're with

Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real

Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on

No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No
And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real

I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on

But you're long gone, you moved on

But you're long gone, you moved on 

- The Script

I just heard this song and thought how well it summed up my feelings.  Wouldn’t things seem much simpler if all your feelings emotions would end along with a failed relationship? But instead you have to battle with the emotions and all the feelings left behind. Because while your relationship status might change, the love you felt for him and the memories that you once shared together seem to linger on. 

But eventually there comes a point when you have to realise that you can’t change the past. And you can’t change the way things ended. All you can do is learn to make the best of everything that is happening now. He’s gone. And I have to figure out the best way to move on. 

Just like in the song, it’s going to be hard... I used to speak to him every day and I told him just about everything. So for the most part we were friends. But now I need to accept that things just couldn't work out. 

Way too many frogs out there...

Way too many frogs out there, and not nearly enough Princes....

Something to inspire...

"Anyone can give up, its the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength. "

Often we get so caught up in the problems that surround us, that we forget that we are not alone. There are people in our lives that genuinely care about us and will do anything to make us smile :)

One thing that I have learnt over the past few months, is that you need to be grateful for even the smallest blessings. Then you will realize that things are not as bad as they seem. More often than not.

I would be nowhere without my faith. Even though things may not be clear right now, I believe that one day, in the quiet of our hearts, we will come to understand all the things that have happened in our lives.

"True Courage is doing the thing that scares you the most."

Don't you Quit!

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

- Author unknown

This poem was sent to me by a close friend some time ago and it really meant a lot to me. Reading it again reminds me that it is important to hold on till the very end for something that you want. If you quit, you will always be left wondering what could have happened if you had just tried it one last time. It may not be easy but then again, nothing worth having ever is.

Important Roles - And my goals as each

I wrote this a while ago, but just haven’t published until now. I went to see my mentor for our weekly meeting and we were speaking about the various roles that we all play in our lives. In order to fill each role the best we can, it is important that we have a set of goals for each of them. Things that we hope to achieve in those relationships or in those roles.

The roles that I play in my life include: sister, daughter, medical student, friend, and woman.

Family member

©      Grow a stronger relationship with my sisters and parents

©      Not step on anybody’s toes while I am at home

©      Communicate and speak/ chat regularly

Medical Student

©      Work diligently and be more disciplined

©      Achieve a full bursary

©      Be more confident

©      Attain adequate knowledge

Friends

©      Make new friends and build more relationships

©      Keep in touch with old friends

©      Appreciate close friends and make ways to spend time with them

Woman

©      Exercise regularly

©      Eat healthy, balanced meals

©      Discover something new about myself

©      Develop hobbies and interests

©      Be independent and confident

So far I haven't been able to keep up with these, but it's never too late to start right...