Starting over

 For the longest time, I have been contemplating how to get back into blogging again. I love the site that I created way back in 2011 because it holds so many memories and sentimental pieces. I'm filled with nostalgia looking through it. Seeing my words on the screen takes me back to those times and reminds me of the young woman that was making sense of the world and seeking connection. Back then, my blog was anonymous and I didn't share it with anyone in my life. I was afraid of appearing vulnerable with my honesty and felt anxious about being criticized and judged. I also felt that it would be too revealing and I would feel limited to post freely. 

I feel anxious a lot of the time. Over the past few years, especially, I have been working through it and challenging myself to overcome the fear. Now I am realizing that maybe the fear and anxiousness will always be there to some extent, but that doesn't need to put me off the task. I'm working on recognizing the fear and doing it anyway. I'm also constantly reminding myself that there isn't one "right" way to do something and that perfection doesn't exist.

So while I figure out the right next step, I will be brave and be open to all possibilities. 

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Day 6: What do I need less of?

Day 6: What do I need LESS of?

1) Atelophobia.

The fear of imperfection. 

The fear of never being good enough.

2) Self-doubt.

No more second-guessing who I am and what I am capable of achieving.

3)Insecurities .

4) Shame.

Living with shame only brings us down. 

Accept that the past happened.
Acknowledge mistakes and learn from them. 

Then - 
Let it go.

Move forward. 

5) Negativity.

Time to focus on the glass being half-FULL.  

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Day 5: What do I need more of?

Day 5: What do I need more of?

1) Self love.

I need to value myself more.

Lately I’ve been trapped in this cycle of giving people what they want,

even though I know it hasn’t been good for me. 

I need to love all the parts of myself,

and be gentle with the parts that are struggling.

This also means understanding that there will be both good days and bad days;

things that come easily, and things that may take time.

I’ve learnt that loving myself is a choice

that I must make every single day.

2) Confidence.

In my abilities.

In who I am now and the woman I am becoming.

In my future – that the best is yet to come!

3) Faith.

Increasing and unconditional - for every situation or season. 

Isaiah 40:31

4) New Adventures.

For the first time in a few months I've been home bound - which has been good for me. But now I long for trying new things and making new discoveries.

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Out of the shadows

My name is Noma. I am 26 years old, and I live with my family in Port Elizabeth, South Africa.

I started blogging here many moons ago in 2011.  Back then I was a struggling 2^nd year medical student, had just ended a relationship and was feeling very homesick. I needed someone to talk to during a time when I felt isolated. Writing and blogging was a means to express my feelings, emotions and insecurities without wondering how people would react to them. I didn't want to seem vulnerable or weak in the eyes of people around me. So instead I reached out to an anonymous world where I could be myself completely. 

Over the years I have come to understand that vulnerability does not mean weakness, and that it is something that many people struggle with. Vulnerability is beautiful, and it allows connection with others.

I now feel as though this journey is not something that I need to hide anymore. Words are magical and have the power to heal and transform.

This blog is an outward expression of my heart and represents and describes things that hold great meaning for me. Things that resonates with in my heart. Thank you for allowing me to share this with you.

 Feel free to leave a comment or just say Hi! J