In my dreams you come alive...

Every night I go to sleep,

Thinking of all the things that we could never be.

I crave you in every way.

In my dreams you come alive, it almost feels too real.

I wish that every touch, every embrace and every kiss could last forever.

But then the sun rises and my alarm clock rings.

I wake with a sense of loss.

I am no longer in your arms.

You are so far away.

Dreaming of you only frustrates me.

It just leaves me feeling lonely and mad at the same time.

I am stuck reliving our last moment together.

I can’t won't do this anymore,

I know that we can never be together.

So, I need to let you go.

In a way we both knew that this has been doomed right from the start.

I need to figure out a way to keep our friendship unscathed.

I need to stop myself from falling in love with you.

I need to stop wanting you so completely.

I need to get these ideas out of my mind.

And I need to extinguish all hope in my mind of us ever being together.

Otherwise, I will never move on.

All this time I have been fooling myself into thinking that what we have could ever be real.
-N.M-