On my part, it might also have to do with the lack of confidence that I seem
to have these days. Being out of school for 4 years already and still having to
say that I am in 2nd year is a bit of a knock to the ego. I know that it’s more
complicated than that, but it still stings a little for me. I sometimes feel as
if I am stuck in the same place, whereas everyone around me has moved on and
has been making a new successful life for themselves.
So now I just think that it’s time to face the reality that being back in
town isn’t a life altering event for everyone anymore. And I am OK with that.
It was difficult at first, coming home and not having the same crew to call up
and hang out with, but I have also realised that even they have all split up
and have found where they belong with different people. I'm not saying that I
will still not message them every now and again, but we are all at different
places in our lives. Some are graduating this year, starting to work, or just
trying to get on with each day.
I will always cherish the memories that we share and I wish
them all of the best from the bottom of my heart.
